||[May. 3rd, 2005|09:42 am]
soft spoken with a broken jaw
i have this boy who draws me koalas..
sigh, life is tough. right now im the midst of such a busy week, prom is friday. me and all of my friends are such stoners we all put everything off until this week and now its just.
i have to work today, tomorrow and friday.
in between now and friday i have to get..
shoes, a hotel room, new underwear, wallet?
i dont know its just a lot of stuff to get done, not to mention tanning.
i am having the hardest time being with elliot. i love him SO much and i care SO much about him but its one of the toughest things to do, care about him. he's so unhappy and noting works out. if i dont see him in the morning we'll get into a fight and everytime im not with him i just worry. i feel like if im not with him ill get cheated on or that im doing something terribly wrong. its such a shitty situation to be in, all i can do is really be sad.
its shitty i can even describe the constant weight i have hanging from my heart. i feel so un pretty, i feel so stupid, i feel so hated..i feel not worth anything, especially anythat has to do with him.
i think i might have anxiety.
and here i bust into tears, AGAIN.
maybe im horomonal.
nope everythings just i dont know.
i have to call my dr to make an appointment for my pe waiver and such. here we go..